Where to start???

Hi, my name is Leah and I am fat.  I have been for as long as I can remember.  At several times in my life I have lost weight just to put it back on.  I am TIRED of the cycle!!! I am tired of how I feel, I am tired of saying I will do it only to fail.  I am tired of being fat!!

Here is a little history of Leah. I come from a family of very over weight people everything in my life has revolved around food. Celebrations, grieving, you name it, we ate. Now, I have a very unhealthy relationship with food and my body. I'm tired of this relationship! I want to break up! I want it to be for good. No more begging to come back and allowing it. We are done, it's over, finished, we are through!!! I have always been accountable to myself. You would think this would be enough to see me through, but alas, it has not. When I look around and see all the people in my family over weight I think it's ok to be this way. Boy am I wrong. I have been told that blogging and having people see your accomplishments and failures helps with this journey. I guess we will see. I have many things to overcome with getting healthy AGAIN. I have a disorder in my spine that has shifted every other vertebrae to the right. YAY! Some days it's to painful to sit, stand, or walk much less workout. Eating is something I do because I enjoy it, I'm bored, I'm stressed, or sad, or tired, or you get the point. I have to get a handle on this again! I started this journey in November 2007 at 272 pounds. In December 2010 I was at 185. Go me! I am now at 250 again! Ouch! Now to face this battle again. I'm not going to lie, it will be hard. But the pictures I have posted on my fridge are a reminder of just how damn good I looked then. So, come share this adventure with me. My ups, the downs, the victories, and hopefully very few, failures. I am new to the blogging scene so bare with me if I ramble. Thanks for stopping by, Thin again

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